grabe!

Alam nyo nakakatawang isipin kung paano nasasabi ko sa sarili ko na "I believe in love." Nakakatawa sya kasi sa buong buhay ko, ni wala pa yatang nagpakita sa akin o nagparamdam ng lintek na pagmamahal na yan. Ang ibig kong sabihin yung pagmamahal na tipong nakakabaliw.Sabi pa nga minsan nung isa, "We're better off as friends." PUCHA! Kaibigan?! Sa lahat ng ginawa ko para sa kanya at sa lahat ng sinakripisyo ko, kaibigan lang pala ang habol nya sa akin. Ano ba ito lokohan lang? Pero sige, sabi ko "move on, move on."Tapos itong isa naman sabi "Mabait lang ako sa babae kaya ako ganito sa iyo." Lalong masakit! Bakit? Hanep naman kasi. Bibisitahin ka linggo-linggo sa bahay, magiging sweet sa iyo, kakantahan ka pa, yayakapin, hahalikan at higit sa lahat sasabihing napakaganda mo at napakabait at ano ba yun 'special' girl ka sa kanya. Hindi mo aakalain na normal lang pala nyang ginagawa yun. Ikaw naman, mafofall ka, hindi mo mapigilan. Pero wala ka namang magawa. Ang sabi ko naman sa sarili ko ngayon, "it's your loss, not mine."Yung iba naman, eh di syempre manliligaw. At dahil likas akong dalagang Pilipina, papakipot muna ako. Kung kailan mo na sasagutin, saka naman hihinto. Bakit? Aakalain na hindi mo sya gusto, na pinaasa mo lang at wala kang kabalak-balak sagutin. Guys, isang advice lang, hindi naman kayo paaasahin ng mga babae kung wala silang gusto ni katiting sa inyo. Maaaring mali ako, pero karamihan sa amin, kaya pinapatagal eh dahil gutso kayong subukan kung hanggang saan ang tagal nyo at syempre kung gaano kayo kaseryoso. Yan lang naman ang drama namin, masanay na kayo. At ano naman ang sabi ko naman sa sarili ko ngayon? "Bahala ka! Marami pa naman dyang iba!" Tapos sige move on ulit.Ito ang pamatay sa lahat. Nanligaw si lalaki, sinagot ni babae. Maganda na sana ang relationship tapos isang araw, sasabihin na lang sa iyo, "Hindi ko na kaya. Tapusin na natin ito." Iniwan ka na lang basta ng dahil sa isang dahilang hindi mo malunok, maintindihan at tanggapin. Ni hindi mo alam kung gusto mong sabunutan o suntuk-suntukin ng paulit-ulit baka sakaling matauhan at sabihin nyang, "Joke lang po." Pero hindi. Sa halip na sya ang makaramdam ng sakit ng sabunot at kirot ng suntok, ikaw pa ang halos mamatay sa triple or higit pang sakit. At ang masakit pa kinabukasan alalaman mo na ang tunay na dahilan eh, 'sila' na ng matalik mong kaibigan. PUCHA! Hindi mo alam kung iiyak ka, o sisigaw ka o susugurin mo ang your so-called "bestfriend" at isumbat sa kanya lahat ng nararamdaman mo. Sa huli, wala kang magawa kung hinde tanggapin ang lahat at maging masaya para sa kanila. May magagawa ka pa ba? Sasabihin mo naman sa sarili mo, "Makakarma rin kayo!" tapos hala, move on ulit.Nakakapagod magmahal, totoo yan. Pero bakit pa rin ako patuloy na naghihintay? Masyado lang ba ang tiwala ko sa pag-ibig o likas na tangengotlang talaga ako. Pareho yata. Tama, oo, pareho nga. Ang lakas kasi ng tiwla ko sa 'love." Tipong kakambal ko na ba.Masarap magmahal kahit na hindi mo alam kung mahal ka rin nya. Basta ikaw, mahal mo sya. Yun lang ang importante. Makita mo lang sya, feel mo gusto mong magpa-fiesta. Madikitan mo lang ang sinulid ng damit nya, ang sasabihin mo sa sarili mo, "Ay shet! Nadikit ako sa balat nya!" at sabay talon. Ngitian ka lang nya, pwede ka ng magpasagasa sa kotse or kahit sa LRT. Drama noh?Paano pa kaya kung "kayo" na? Eh di mas lalong humaba ang buhok mo. Andito na yung lagi nilang sinasabing hindi ka makakain, hindi ka makatulog at hindi ka makapag-isip na kahit na ano maliban lang ang mga pantasya mo na kasama sya.Madrama na kung sa madrama pero pag in-love, ay sus! Walang corny-corny, basta para sa kanya kahit may corn field ka na sa utak at puso mo, wala kang pakialam. Patuloy kang magmamahal at aasa na kayo na nga sana forever and ever.Ako? Parang takot na yata akong ma-in-love ulit. Parang takot na akong sumubok pa ng isa. Parang ayoko na! Pero parang hindi tama. Ganyan naman sa 'love' diba? Sige lang, tuloy ka hangga't Makita mo ang katapat mo.Takot man akong sumubok muli, kakayanin ko ang takot na ito. Hindi para sa akin, kundi para dun sa taong mamahalin ako ng higit pa sa kahit na ano. Yung taong aalagaan ako, taong magsasabi na maganda ako kahit na halos lumuwa na ang mata ko sa puyat at yung taong magsasabi na "Mga 'tol, yan ang girlfriend ko. Iisa lang yan sa buhay ko." HAAAYYY!!! Sarap isipin noh?Masarap at masakit umibig. Magkakambal yan. Nasa inyo na lang kung pipiliin nyong kumapit o bumitaw.Ngayon eto ako, umaasa pa rin. Andito pa rin ako na nagpapatuloy sa buhay, patuloy na humihinga at patuloy na nabubuhay para sa 'kanya' yung taong darating na para lang sa akin. At syempre eto pa rin ako, natatawa kapag sinasabi kong, "I believe in love." Natatawang naniniwalang totoo ito..

my sweet niece.....IGAY!

ashley kyle is my baby!!! don't you dare take her away from me! i am here prepared to take care of her as her daddy as she calls me!i really love her with all my heart. her simple ways make me smile wide. she makes me feel good and relaxed. i'm really glad that i have her. i'm really glad that she is mine, here by my side. here to share all the dufficulty together!i won't let you go! you are mine and i am yours! i will be here for you always! what ever may happen...do i make you feel the same way you make me feel? i hope you do coz i want you to experience the joy that you bring me.i want to kiss you. i want to hug you. will you do the same for me? 'coz you know, i will do anything you want me to. baby, i hope you like what I made for you... but i just want you to know that this is from my heart.i really do hope that we'd last. it only depends on us if we will make things work.this is all that i will promise you... i will love you with all my heart...

I never thought when we first met

I never thought when we first met we'd become such good friends;We've stuck by each others side even if our lives bend.You're aways there to bring a smile to my face;You'll always make me laugh no matter where the place.Even in sad times you've been there to guide the way;You're always there to listen to me every single day. Always on the other side of the phone listening to me blab on;You'll always be my best friend even when I'm gone.You've helped me through times when I thought I had no one;You've always stood by my side since our friendship begun. Your support and encouragement means so much to me;You've always tried your best and been the best you can be.Now I have you by me more then a friend; I know I'll always be able to rely on you till the very end.Thank you for the smiles and the challenges we still have to pass; I know if I have you by my side Our lives will be a blast.

am i a STRANGER?

A stranger will always be a stranger unless one reached out for the other. I am glad I decided to make that move to get to know this person for I believe that by doing such, I am building a connection to someone who deserves to have friends. It could be luck that this person approved my request to be his friend even if we don't even know each other personally. Relying on mere profiles, it really takes trust to open such door and let somebody in. I made the right choice when I knocked! Thanxfor letting me in! Words of appreciation will never be enough. Let time prove that even in the world of information super highway, a real friendship can exist. Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.Take care and GOD Bless! Life is Beautiful...

such a very nice reflection to share......

my mom only had one eye.i hated her... she was such an embarressment..my mom ran a small shop at a flea market.she collected little weeds and such to sell...anything for the money we neededshe was such an embarressment.there was this one day during elementary school..it was field day, and my mom came.i was so embarressed. how could she do this tome? i threw her a hateful look and ran out. the next day at school..."your mom only has one eye?!?!" ..and theytaunted me.i wished that my mom would just dissappear fromthis worldso i said to my mom,"mom.. why dont you have the other eye?!if you're only gonna make me a laughingstock,why dont you just die?!!!"my mom did not respond..i guess i felt a little bad, but at the same time, itfelt good to think that i had said what i'd wanted tosay all this time..maybe it was because my mom hadnt punishedme,but i didnt think that i had hurt her feelings verybadly. that night...i woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glassof water.my mom was crying there, so quietly, as if shewas afraid that she might wake me.i took a look at her, then turned away.because of the thing i had said to her earlier, therewas something pinching at me in the corner of myheart.even so, i hated my mother who was crying out ofher one eye. so i told myself that i would grow upand become successful.cause i hated my one-eyed mom and ourdesperate poverty.. then i studied real hard.i left my mother and came to Seoul and studied,and got accepted in the Seoul University with allthe confidence i had. then, i got married.i bought a house of my own.then i had kids, too..now i'm living happily as a successful man.i like it here because it's a place that doesntremind me of my mom. this happiness was getting bigger and bigger,when.. what?!who's this?!...it was my mother.....still with her one eye.it felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me.my little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye.and i asked her, "who are you?!""i dont know you!!!" as if trying to make that real. iscreamed at her," how dare you come to myhouse and scare my daughter!" "GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!" and to this, my mother quietly answered,"oh, i'm so sorry. i may have gotten the wrongaddress,"and she dissappeared out of sight. thank good ness... she doesnt recognize me..i was quite relieved. i told myself that i wasnt going to care, ! or thinkabout this for the rest of my life.then a wave of relief came upon me... one day, a letter regarding a school reunion cameto my house. so, lying to my wife that i was goingon a business trip, i went.after the reunion, i went down to the old shack,that i used to call a house...just out of curiosity there, i found my mother fallen on the cold ground.but i did not shed a single tear.she had a piece of paper in her hand.... it was aletter to me. my son...i think my life has been long enough now.. and... i wont visit Seoul anymore...but would it be too much to ask if i wanted you tocome visit me once in a while?i miss you so much.. and i was so glad when iheard you were coming for the reunion.but i decided not to go to the school....for you...and i'm sorry that i only have one eye, and i wasan embarressment for you. you see, when you were very little, you got intoanaccident, and lost your eye. as a mom, i couldntstand watching you having to grow up with onlyone eye... so i gave you mine...i was so proud of my son that was seeing awholenew world for me, in my place, with that eye. iwasnever upset at you for anything you did.. thecouple times that you were angry with me,.. ithought! to myself, 'it's because he loves me..' my son... oh, my son...i dont want you to cry for me, because of mydeath. please dont cry...my son, i love you so much

Warning for all the ladies out there; and men please inform your significant other.

The Latest Scam: Robbing Females using the bathroom at a Shopping Mall.The way the scam works is, a man slips into a women's restroom and sneaks into a stall. He waits until there is only one woman in the restroom in a neighboring stall.The criminal then stands on the toilet and points a hand gun into the next stall, demanding the woman's valuables. After getting her cash and jewelry, he demands that she remove all of her clothing and kick them out of the stall. The thief tosses the clothing into a shopping bag, hangs an out of order sign on the restroom door, and slips back into the mall. The out of order sign ensures no one will soon come to the woman's rescue. It usually takes an hour or two for the woman to work up the nerve to leave the restroom in the nude, giving the criminal ample time to make his get away. The woman is left naked and humiliated in a mall full of strangers.The best defense, say police, is to never go into a shopping mall restroom alone, as only women who are by themselves are targeted.The Latest Scam: Robbing Females using the bathroom at a Shopping Mall.The way the scam works is, a man slips into a women's restroom and sneaks into a stall. He waits until there is only one woman in the restroom in a neighboring stall.The criminal then stands on the toilet and points a hand gun into the next stall, demanding the woman's valuables. After getting her cash and jewelry, he demands that she remove all of her clothing and kick them out of the stall. The thief tosses the clothing into a shopping bag, hangs an out of order sign on the restroom door, and slips back into the mall. The out of order sign ensures no one will soon come to the woman's rescue. It usually takes an hour or two for the woman to work up the nerve to leave the restroom in the nude, giving the criminal ample time to make his get away. The woman is left naked and humiliated in a mall full of strangers.The best defense, say police, is to never go into a shopping mall restroom alone, as only women who are by themselves are targeted.

Scientists Discover Genetic Pathway Responsible For Breast Cancer Cell Growth

08/09/05 -- Scientists at the MUHC have made an important discovery that will advance our understanding of how the female hormone estrogen causes growth of breast cancer cells. The research, in collaboration with scientists at the Institut de Recherches Cliniques de Montreal (IRCM) identifies 153 genes that respond to estrogen and one in particular that can be used to halt the growth of breast cancer cells. The study, published in today's Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences (PNAS), will focus future research for a breast cancer cure. "We have known for a very long time that estrogen causes the growth of breast cancer cells," says lead investigator Dr. Vincent Giguère. "This is how oncologists came to use anti-estrogen as drugs to combat the most common forms of breast cancer." What has remained a mystery however, is the molecular mechanism by which estrogen makes breast cancer cells grow. "Until this is solved, we will be no closer to figuring out how to prevent and cure breast cancer," Dr. Giguère noted.

Over the past two decades researchers have identified around 20 estrogen-activated genes that play a role in development of breast cancer. "That's about one gene discovery per year," says Dr. Giguère. "Using cutting edge new technology derived directly from the human genome project, this study adds over hundred additional genes to this total."

The technology used information obtained from the human genome project to create a new type of DNA microchip containing the partial DNA sequences of approximately 19,000 genes. Dr. Giguère's team was able to localize where the estrogen receptor was bound in the genome of breast cancer cells, thereby identifying a large number of genes that respond to this hormone in a single experiment. "This technology, first developed for the study of yeast, now offers the opportunity to rapidly identify, in a genome-wide manner, the genes involved in the response to natural hormones or drugs in normal and cancer cells," says co-author Dr. François Robert from the IRCM.

Of particular importance was the discovery of a gene called FOXA1, known as a transcription factor. "FOXA1 can be viewed as a facilitator of estrogen action on cancer cells," says Josée Laganière, a graduate student at the MUHC and principal author of the paper. "It is found in breast cancer tumours that express the estrogen receptor." In their study, the researchers found that the FOXA1 gene was required for the estrogen receptor to activate the growth of breast cancer cells.

"By inactivating the FOXA1 gene in laboratory cell cultures, we were able to block the growth-inducing effect of estogen, and thus halt the growth of breast cancer cells," says Dr. Giguère. In FOXA1 researchers have found a new target that affects the development of breast cancer. In practical terms, efforts can now be focused on developing a more precise cure/treatment for cancer based on this gene. "The problem with cancer drugs in general has been that they are often untargeted, which is why patients experience side effects," notes Dr. Giguère. "The more focused the drugs the less side effects and the more chance you have to cure the disease."

"Research targeting individual molecules associated with pathogenesis of cancer has led to positive clinical results," says Dr. Joseph Ragaz, Director of MUHC Oncology Program. "Evidence-based data on agents such as Gleevac in leukemia, Avastin in colorectal cancer, and more recently with Herceptin for breast cancer, confirm that the efforts of researchers like Dr. Giguere and his team save lives and money. These connections between research and health care are one of the strengths of academic hospitals like the MUHC."

Source: McGill University

b a m b 0 0 ! ! !

Bamboo Mañalac is well-admired for his powerful presence and breathtaking voice that people wonder if his true persona takes a 180-degree turn when he’s on stage. On this perceived notion of being “wild” on stage, he simply notes that he’s focused in all of his performances. It is this unique concentration and energy that blows away the fans who admire him enormously. But even as such charm endears him to many, others have supposedly been turned off by his aloofness. “I maybe mysterious to some people, but if you see me walk in a mall, and come up to me…I’m fine,” Bamboo says.

Bamboo is no newbie to the world of rock. He was previously the lead vocalist for Rivermaya before leaving the country to study and work abroad. Upon his return, formed a new band interestingly named after him. He didn’t favor the band’s name at first but agreed to it as long as it referred to the four-member group. Since Bamboo, the band, introduced its kind of music, it has been praised by many critics and fans alike.

His creativity and music sense could have only come from his family’s gene pool. He recalls sticking to the walls the poems he got from his grandparents when he was young. His dad is into music as well and his mom has a background in theater. It could be his creativity that makes Bamboo an ambitious individual and at heart, simply a serious performer. And if the “astig” image is part of the consequence, so be it. “Astig means you’re cool,” Bamboo says, quickly adding, “I just know who we are [as a band] and what we do so I just focus on that.”

id0l k0 't0!

Ely Buendia

Eraserheads was the most popular Pinoy rock band in the early ‘90s, thanks to the talent, extraordinary charm and experimental ingenuity of its members, vocalist/guitarist, Ely Buendia in particular. His voice and words matched with the mix of retro, rock and alternative beats were a fresh, dramatic and hypnotic hit to Pinoy music. However, the group disbanded a decade later, spurred by the departure of Ely.

Despite the dissolution of the Eraserheads, Ely remains visible in the music scene as the leader of the band, The Mongols. And his image as a haughty pop sensation remains. “I don’t live up sa kung anumang image ng tao sa ‘kin…. kaya maraming naaasar,” remarks Ely. ”Gusto ko tao pa rin ako when I get out, when I perform… Hindi ‘yung kung ang image ng audience sa iyo ‘yun ang gagawin ko. Kung gutom ako, galit ako, papakita ko talaga.”

Ely kids himself as the rebel “without” a cause, but take that lightly folks. He isn’t really headstrong and is never a moment shallow. His band mates from The Mongols have always given him the highest regard, some even initially intimidated from assuming he’s a stern perfectionist. But hang around with him a little bit more and you’ll find out he’s a generous guy who brings out the best in the group. Also, contrary to rumors, he doesn’t have a wild personality. Remember how quiet the break-up of Eraserheads was? His exit after all had nothing to do with any grudges. It was just simple way of moving on. “Physically, mentally, emotionally, I had to take a vacation because 10 years with the Eraserheads was sobrang draining, na-burn out ako…” recalls Ely.

Today, Ely combines fame and fatherhood and is also more open to talking about his life. However fans or critics perceive this music icon, he says “I’m just always true to myself.”