WHY NOW? KILL ME?

now when i'm just learning.learning to express.express my feeling.feeling i've been longing.longing to have.have a friend.friend that's so pretty.pretty yet so so simple.simple that made me like.like about you.you made me tell.tell how i feel.feel for the first time.time when we met.met in person.person with talents.talents so great.great as that smile.smile that can kill.KILL ME?